Insomniac Lullaby

“Tell me a story.”

“Alright,
there once was a boy and girl.
They live in a tower alone,
and past the time with games
kings, queens, bishops and pawns
each less significant than the last
shuffling the secrets of their longings within their club of hearts
supposedly content with their dress-up existence;
then one night the boy rolled over and said,
’I dream as I wake
a dream of you and me
but as you sleep
you dream alone
still yet we do dream
yet still we lie.’

I stay up and stare at the stars,
but there's no stars in here.
What I see instead swims in my head;
it shows me what I don't want to see.

There's a body next to me,
she's the fire in my heart,
but it's the light that I can't stand.
If I fell asleep she'd wake me up
with a habit of holding my hand.

The songs that I sang from insomnia
I tried to keep them from you,
but you'd wake up and sing a chorus with me
and I'd just fall out of tune.
Your harmony of pity
my melody of shame,
we both know the lyrics,
but don't know what they mean
I'll sing when you want all the same.

There's a wolf out my window
a noise in my head
a devil in my heart
dancing with the dark
I try to listen,
but I can't

Oh my God, I've been sleeping with ghosts,
it haunts me I'm not in control.
You give me something that I can't give back,
because in the light I'm vulnerable

The songs that I sang from insomnia
I tried to keep them from you,
but you'd wake up and sing a chorus with me,
and I'd just fall out of tune,
but I'll sing when you want just the same.
Yeah, I'll sing when you want just the same.